When the storm had passed I looked out my window to see the most amazing sky. Yellow and blue filled the once tempered sky; hints of red, orange and purple accented the beautiful canvas. God must be a painter and at times he must see the sadness in the world as opportunities to show his greatest beauty.
I took many pictures and I hope you can enjoy them:
However this literal storm wasn’t the only one that has clouded my heart lately. You see my best friend in the entire world lost her heart the other day. She has watched it be bashed by a boy. Some days even she bashes it against rocks to get it beating again, but no matter what she does it has stopped. It pains her and we all know that a heart made of pain can’t really beat at all. So her poor heart leaves her incapable of breathing. Unable to focus between a rock and a hard place, she waits. Waiting for her executioner to come and finally kill her heart. Putting it out of its misery. Out of all the people she assumed would finally kill her heart and out of all the people she thought would hide behind the black façade of the murderous mask never once did she see her boyfriend with the blade in his hand. The only young male she has ever loved has finally shown her every last thing she hated about men was true.
Why does he get to have the right? The right to choose her fate? The right to murder her heart after all the torture he has put it through. The reason is because he feels entitled to it because his mama’s boy attitude allows him to.
Story Time Young Friends:
It starts with two wonderful people both inside and out. They both had a few problems, but they shared the world with each other. They learned to love one another trying to guide each other from the harm others had caused. However the boy wasn’t happy enough and felt that since he has never had to follow a single rule in his life why should he have to start now? So instead of protecting his young beloved’s heart he chose to betray it. After all the nightmares she told of boyfriends before him that would smoke pot and abuse her he ignored that and still chose to smoke pot anyway. He threw her heart across the room not brave enough to tell her the truth and she swept up the mess, picked up the pieces by herself and attempted forgiving him. Mistake after mistake he chose his selfish addictions rather than his young love’s heart. Months go by until she gets to a point of unease where she cannot sleep. She confronts him gently begging for him to tell her the truth.
“Do you have anything? Cigars, pot, anything?”
“No.” he replies “I don’t.”
She asks him again twice only to receive the same answer. Hoping in her heart that he is telling the truth, but not convinced enough to let the issue go. Here is the first climax blog friends: GUESS WHAT! She was right! He DID have SUBSTANCES! All the help she had given him, all the support and he still chose to be a slave to his addictions? Broken hearted she confronts him only for him to throw their relationship on the gambling table. Well he has never been very good at gambling and it isn’t a surprise when he loses. The girl wants so badly to help him and suggests he get some himself some help. Poor girl can’t win either though. Never she thinks that the betrayal would go further. That her boyfriend would hug a topless girl; however why is she surprised since hasn’t he been a sexist person before? He told her once that he used to think women were just objects. Why should the digression be any different? Spotting her escape she runs for it but suddenly is grabbed by his meaty claws. Disgusted by his dirty touch she yells for him to let her go. She runs down the stairs and he grabs her again. She hits him with her shoe. Here is climax number two! His mother rushes out like an animal protecting her cub and yells for the girl to
“Get your fucking hands off of my son, you crazy bitch!”
Boy just stands there cowardly letting his mother degrade and push his so-called love out the door slamming it in the girl's devastated tear streaked face.
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That is the story and I’m sure there are many out there that might state otherwise, but I don’t really care. I just believe in loyalty and class. I believe that no person should EVER have to go through the situation Amanda had to go through. I wish I could say that the story was just a story from a soap opera, but the sad truth is that it is not. The saddest part and possible ending to this story is that her boyfriend has broken her heart more times than she can count. She decided to reveal the truth for her own sanity. So it was in a way that was controversial, but where was she going to get the answers she needed? He wasn’t going to tell her; he had been lying to her for four months. What was going to make him stop? Funny how he finds himself deciding if she was worth it and that maybe she is not able to be trusted. He will end their relationship on that note.
I just wanted to let the critics out there know that I love Amanda with all of my heart. Never once has she deserved to be called a bitch. Nobody deserves to be called horrible names especially when her only crime was trying to love someone. Loving someone so much that she wasn’t going to let him slide into his addictions. He is an addict and addicts cannot be trusted, not the people that try to help them.
I also wanted to let them know that no matter what happens to Amanda’s heart she will be ok. She is the strongest person I have ever known and she will not let you label her. Amanda is going to hold her head up high and find someone that might actually treat her well. One day she is going to wake up to a sunny day and she is going to put on the most amazingly beautiful white dress. She will walk towards a man with a family that will love her and protect her. She is going to wake up every morning to someone who loves her enough to say no to the things that he knows will hurt her. To a man that loves her and who will make her forget all the losers before. A man that will make them just a distant memory and who isn’t like Cole.
Because after all doesn’t she deserve a happy ending to her story?
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