Movie Madness and Quiet Reflective Moments

Tonight is a night to worship. As I sit here listening to the beautifully wonderful music of Bethany Dillion I am letting it encase my heart in God's wisdom and love for me. Letting the sweet tones and lyrics remind me that no matter how despaired I can feel at times God is always here within me. I really need this kind of night, the one that lets you focus on things other than stress. Allowing you to remember that one should not worry about things that they cannot control, but trust in God's plan. I need time to be peaceful, to reflect, to read, to worship, to live and love. It is about discovering what my purpose should be.

I have had a busy few days. Rebuilding myself after an attempt at romance that went sour. Learning to pick myself up; as I have always done, becoming stronger. Today I woke up with a new attitude. Things suck, things happen, but I need to hold my faith a little closer to me. I need to have more of it, that things will work out eventually. I realize I need to wear it like a shield against my fears and doubt. 

I don't want this to be super serious, but just a checking in point. I've been busy having a lot of fun these last few days. So I would rather briefly mention that because like I said before... I am busy.

Tuesday: I went out to a new Mexican restaurant with my mom for Mother's Day. We went and had wonderful food and strong margaritas. I got this delicious taquitos. They were filled with shredded beef and cream cheese. Delicious! I got a blue beverage that was passed off as a margarita, but made me extremely tipsy.  Thus I sort of fell asleep and missed the two hour Glee event. No worries though because I eventually found it online and watched it. Like I've said before it is about enjoying the little things.

Wednesday: I got called into work, but that is ok. I worked a simple four hour shift. I made a little extra dough. After work I ate dinner with Tillman at The Which Wich. I got this roast beef sandwich with bacon, cream cheese, cheese whiz, and cucumbers. Afterwards we went to go see The Avengers! I was hoping to go see it with a special someone, but it oblivious wasn't an option anymore. However the movie was awesome and like seeing five different movies at once. Fantastic! We came back to my house and had a nice talk about life. I was very angry with Tillman because I thought he was being unfair in a previous conversation we had had earlier. It was nice to clear those things up.

Thursday: Today I woke up and  had a lovely lazy Thursday. After seeing The Avengers the day before I was motivated to finally watch Thor. Ironic that I watched Thor on Thursday (aka Thorsday) Then later in the night I went with the wonderful Sara to hang out. It has been nice to get out of the house and into the beauty of the world. We ran to Target to look for some shoes for her. Then we at dinner at Panera, stopped by half priced books, and last but certainly not least we went to go see The Five Year Engagement. It was a funny movie. A little long, but totally worth it. Very entertaining and a good look at relationships.

So needless to say I've been trying to stay busy. One, so that I might not be torn by what ifs and maybe of a certain situation. Two because it is fun to stay busy. Lately there is this other situation that has just started that I don't want to sit around waiting for. It is just the start of Summer and I want to enjoy it. I want to have fun... sand in my toes, sun on my face, memories being made. I know that Amanda is moving away after this summer and so it is a very important Summer. One to not take people for granted, one to enjoy every opportunity that I am given.

So tonight I leave with a little cliffhanger... It is about hope for summer. It is seeing if I can cross a few bucket list item off maybe?

Good Night