All Good Things...

Must Eventually Come To An End...

Oh gosh... it has been an emotional day. Very bittersweet in all ways. In one way this is the start of a wonderful new journey, but that also means something has to end. That part always makes me a little sad. So the answer is that all good things... eventually must come to an end.

Today was my last day with the little boys I was a nanny for. At times they brought me extreme frustration and possible permanent birth control, however at other times they brought much joy to my life. I am going to miss them dearly. Yes, even Ronin (The one that constantly stole my gum, drew on various things with pen, and broke an IKEA style cabinet.) Ronin put the terrible in terrible twos, but I have had such a great experience watching him grow up for the past year or so. Then there is little Mason. He isn't so little anymore and he isn't going to be little for very long. He is the amazing little guy that made things better for me this past year. I had someone break my heart into many pieces, I've had a rough year, but a little time with Mason made it all better. It is subtle, but he was the perfect example of how time moves along. When I first started watching the boys Mason was only two months old. He could barely keep his head up and slept most of the day. Now this little baby has turned into a little boy right before my eyes. Mason now has a little personality and is walking all around shouting “Do Da Do Da!” I am going to miss both of their little giggles and laughs, the way they said my name, “Brana”, but I know this isn't goodbye forever. They have an unbelievable special part in my heart that will not be replaced until I probably have my own children. I was blessed to get to spend almost a year with the two cutest boys.

Usually I don't get emotional during American Idol finales, but maybe because of the previous statement I felt a little more weepy. That being said when the name was read and Scotty McCreery I just started to tear up. I can remember the last four American Idol finales (I still can't believe this is already the fourth since I started regularly watching) I know I said I didn't really care, but I think a stronger more truthful part of me knew I was lying. For when Scotty's song started to play and he began to hug his family I got emotional.

I remember the excitement when David Cook won, the pure adrenaline of the underdog Kris Allen's win, and my composed acceptance while Lee Dewyze sang his U2 cover. It is another end, but I guess it gives me hope that next year will crown yet another Idol and that makes me excited. Congrats Scotty, I figured you would win most of the time. This isn't like other years since my top favorite didn't even make it to the top 2, but still I am proud of both of the final for being such an amazing American Idol for the youth. Both under the age of eighteen and yet so amazing talented. They are lucky and they should use it to their advantage. Congrats Lauren Alainia, you are not just a runner up, but a good country girl. I'm proud of you as well.

Oprah ended after 25 years, all the shows I watch are done for the season, and I am getting ready to take a new life journey. Tonight I went to a music worship service at a different campus for the church I go to. It was amazing and just what I needed for tonight. On Idol night I would have usually been pacing back and forth nervously and waiting for the (unnecessary two hours) to final come down to the last ten minutes and a winner would be crowned. Instead I listened to the hearts of those closest to god. I was able to worship and send myself off the camp in a wonderfully musical and holy place. It is a Wednesday night and I realize that I leave in a little less than a week for camp. I don't know how often I will be able to be posting blogs, but I promise you that I will be constantly writing them in my notebooks. I will update as much as I can and of course remember July is the annual music blog. Don't worry, I will be back in August and I will have so much to talk about. So, while I understand All Goods Things eventually come to an end I am comforted by the fact the god's love and mercy for me is never ending. This is just a small pinprick of pain for so much good in my life. I love you guys (the people that read this) and I am grateful for your presence in my life. Have a wonderful summer and stay safe.