The Better Half Of Me

Wow I am so sorry. I know it has been forever since I have written a blog and that is just crazy. I don’t know what to say, because I have written out thoughts in my notebook that never got typed out. However I am here writing now.

Ok aside from that boring paragraph about not writing let me get to the exciting things. The season is Christmas and it has always been a bittersweet time for me. It is the beginning of a new chapter and the end of the most fun time of the year for me. After this the snow becomes a nuisance and unnecessary. The winds blow colder and I long for spring and summer. I realized that time is flying faster and faster each day. I have been lucky enough to have some time to myself to ponder and reflect. I know that not many twenty year olds get to do that. I can’t believe how fast 2008 went and I can’t wait for it to be over. 2008 left me far from where I want to be in life; it left far from feeling happy and motivated. It really has made me more pessimistic about many things and I am ready to let it go. From sad days in March learning that no one is perfect and even your most innocent endearing love is flawed to even sadder May days where I got more than just my back pack stolen, but a piece of my security shattered, I lost my faith piece by piece this year and got it back in only brief moments. I don’t like this feeling, of being so far away from god. Maybe it is just a college thing, but it seem as soon as I grab hold of everything he is and stands for I blink just long enough to watch him vanish away. I am wishing on stars that 2009 will find me better days I am excited and have not lost hope in the time of the year that makes me the most happy. 2008 was not as tragic as 2006, but not as beautiful as 2007 it was just a year of life, boring and quickly fleeing.

As for the things that I wrote about last January I am impressed with them. Although my externship didn’t go as planned and I still haven’t found a job. I graduated! That makes me really proud to say that I am a college graduate.

The two things I was most excited about in 2008 happened without a hitch. I am thankful for these moments because they made 2008 less tragic and more memorable. The first was the music. The new music I listened to was everything I could have dreamed of. In fact the new band I just heard recently, Thriving Ivory is amazing. I listened to some not so new bands that I overlooked other years and began to love listening to music even more. Last but definitely not least I TURNED 20! Yes I am a 20 year old girl and I had the best birthday. It was on a Saturday this year so I got to have a party. I made myself a beautiful lime green cake. Nate and Josh’s band Falling For Fallacies played under a tarp in the rain in my backyard that Saturday night in September. I got terribly sick and ended up eating way too many gummy worms for my own good; but it was a blast. It was a birthday that will not soon be forgotten.

It has been amazing hanging with Lauren this year. From setting her up with Jordan’s friend Kyle to going to the premiere of Twilight with her, she also made 2008 remembered in a better light. I will miss her when she goes off to college next year. I am so thankful to her for getting me into the OC and Twilight this year. It made my life less boring.

I could not forget Nate and Amanda. It is actually Amanda’s birthday today and I am excited to get started on her cake. I really think they are destined for one another, but maybe that is a job for 2009? Next time I talk to you, it will be a NEW YEAR and hopefully a fresh start. Merry Christmas and Happy New Year!