March Madness

Hello Dearest Blogger Friends. I feel like I have been apologizing a lot lately for lack of updates, but I promise I have a good excuse. I have been without a proper keyboard for quite awhile now. However I am happy to be back and soon I will be the blogger you've come to love.

It has been a crazy March to say the least. What with the crazy snowy weather, watching the kids I nanny for grow up and meeting new people it has been interesting. A large part of me has not had the heart to write a blog. As I have stated January starts a time in which I become bored and long for the sun. Today I am sitting here in the beautiful lull of a Marchy Monday night with music blasting into my wondrous and pondering thoughts. This is just a quick update and I promise there will be more epic blogs later. I know I already have notes on one in the works that I have been thinking about but haven't had the resources until recently. However like I said here is a quick update.

I got a new job! I am now the craft manager and camp counselor at Green Lake Camp. I have wanted to do this for awhile, but have either been too busy or held back by someone. I am super excited to start this summer and I know this will help me with a few of my bucket list items for the year of 2011.

A big part of my bucket list includes meeting new people which I have already started on. In the past month I have met two guys. One extremely awkward exchange and the other one seems to be everything I have wanted. I want to be the Taylor Swift Fearless kind of girl, but I am so scared. When you have been in love only to have someone betray you so greatly it makes you wonder if all others are going to betray you as well. I don't want to get close only for the floor to drop out from under me. For a small while there I just gave up. Assumed that love and such were just a myth. My reasoning being how can someone take six months to to say they love you to you and only two to say it to someone else. Yet I picked myself up and I know now that it is just cheap sex thrill and nothing too meaningful.

However my feeling about someone else is new. I can already feel a different and deep sense of safety. All the things I used to fight about will not even be an issue. I want to trust that this is god's path for me. This is new and in the very beginning stages, but I thought I would let you know. The girl with the chocolate dreams is done drowning herself in chocolate and is ready to move on.