I Feel Like Rory Gilmore

Like many girls my age and older I love the show Gilmore Girls. It is something that has always seemed to make me laugh on those days when I am blue. I also always loved how as I was a freshman in high school, one of the main characters; Rory was a freshman in college. I have always admired this fictional character. I have not always agreed with her actions, but have grown to want to be somewhat like her. I just watched a promotion for the next weeks to come in the show and am finding it a little bittersweet. I think there might be some big changes in Rory's life as she graduates from college. It makes me look at my own pending graduation and think also. You see, Gilmore Girls is ending this year. And like my favorite character I am finding stress in my future. I know that this is the last show that I can look at and see my young self in. I know I said that last year for seventh heaven, but this feeling, it is different. You see this year is senior year. There are no 'old' shows and only new ones. I am kind of fearful of change; I love changes, but don't like to say good bye to the things that have made me so happy for so long. When the show ends it will be one more thing to say good bye to on an already large list. This means so much more because it is one last thing that I won't get to see every week. Like Amanda, Lizzy, and other high school friends. I have never felt more connected with Rory than now. She doesn't know when she'll see Paris after this; I don't know how many times I will see my best friend Amanda. Rory and I are both coming to grips with friends that are going different places than us. We know the feeling of saying good bye to people that have known us longer than those past four years. It is going to be a scary world out there, but I can't wait until that day Amanda will call me and calmly state "Don't drop the phone." I will squeal with glee and we will remember the day we shared that inside joke. I also can't wait for the day I can call her and tell her she is going to be a godmother. I don't want to lose the bond we have with each other over these years. She probably thinks I get all cheesy and melodramatic sometimes, but I hope later she knows just how much I care about her and always will. How much I admire everything she does and know she will be amazing in everything she does. "Here's to the tears we knew we'd cry." Both Rory and myself and everyone involved in our lives.

The quote for today comes from Jon Foreman, the lead singer of my favorite band Switchfoot.

"If we spend our time obsessing with the future or regretting the past, then we will never live. Tomorrow will always be tomorrow and yesterday cannot be changed."