Can I Turn These Black Roses Red?

Well I have had a long week. It started off pretty normal and ended with a great party. On Monday I realized something, that I had fallen for someone. At first I didn't want to believe it, I was afraid that it was too soon to deal with this again, but then someone gave me some advice that helped me. It says:

"Falling in love happens naturally; it's not something you can fake or force. But every romance doesn't have to lead to the big L to be fun and fulfilling. Each new relationship teaches you more about yourself--it helps you refine what you really want (or don't want) in a guy. So even if it is just a fling, think of it as a training for the real thing."

I wasn't afraid to fall anymore. So I am welcoming myself back into what it feels like to have a crush again. He may not be 'the one' but he sure makes me smile. I love having that feeling again, it has been awhile since I have smiled this brightly and I don't feel guilty for doing so. He goes to tech school with me and we have so much in common. We are both going to the same college after high school, both want to become Pastry Chefs and both love the show Supernatural on the WB. I have so much fun cooking with him he makes me laugh sooo hard. The next fun in my week was getting to sleep in on Friday and then going to my friend Lizzy's party. I have had stress with a few people this week, some friends that have flaked out on me, some people have talked to down to me. But I don't care, because afterall tommorow is Monday and tommorow it yet another day. Hopefully this week will be better. Although this last week was pretty kick ass.