Stop and Stare

“Stop and Stare. I think I'm moving but I go nowhere. Yeah I know that everyone gets scared. But I've become what I can't be, oh. Stop and stare. You start to wonder why you're here, not there. And you'd give anything to get what's fair But fair ain't what you really need. Oh, can you see what I see.”

It has been one of those weeks. One of those unpredictable ones where you never understand what is coming next and it is only a Wednesday. It is the kind of week that leaves your heart slightly broken, a little bruised and longing for a three day weekend. I have been listening to music lately; not a huge surprise I know blogger friends. I believe though that music is a language of feelings. It is the only thing that helps this little girl inside turn into a woman she wants to be. Music is the saving grace that helps to give this confident young woman the ability to speak her mind.
I have noticed people don’t think before they speak (or write.) They blurt out the first thing that comes to their mind just because they think it will sound dirty and has a possible laugh factor. However they don’t realize the damage they can sometimes cause, how not everything is dirty and in need of corrupting. WHY IS EVERYONE THINKING ABOUT SEX? Why can’t people understand that some people are quite fine with themselves! That they are fine with where they are in their lives. That maybe they don’t have a schedule in their heads of when things are ‘supposed’ to happen. Maybe they don't want that schedule, maybe they want something such as stability before they jump into something. Maybe they care about themselves and the people they are with enough to struggle with the emotions and hormones and still know that no matter how difficult it can be at times they are making a good decision, for them. It is being an indiviual, stepping outside of society's conforming box. Maybe these girls have dreams and maybe it is about of them wanting to be extremely sure that their dreams fit in before they start making drastic decisions. Maybe they have seen all the consequences and heard all the lies. Maybe they are the smart ones. Maybe they sit on the computer writing on a blog that nobody reads because maybe they know that it can be the only way to release their frustrations with ‘society’. However when I am slightly confused I just remember Switchfoot has many great answers. When I think about society I think of this line. “ They tell you where you need to go. They tell you when you need to leave. They tell you what you need to know. They tell you who you need to be. But everything inside you. Knows there's more than what you've heard. There's so much more than empty conversations. Filled with empty words.”

Switchfoot has taught me once again that there is so much more to my life. I realize that what is inside of me and my integrity is more than anyone can take away from me. Something that may not be important to some people, but damn well important to me. So I leave you with one last line from a My Favorite Highway song. “It’s a bittersweet life, but it’s leaving me A-Ok”