Another One Of Those Songs

Every once in a while I think we find a song of the moment. One of the most beautifully tragic songs that makes us think about love, life, and sacrificing a life for someone. For the longest time that song for me was Red Jumpsuit Apparatus’s Guardian Angel. However today I found a new song and a more poetically sorrowful song. It is called Remembering Sunday and it is by a band called All Time Low. Now I haven’t heard much from this band, but my friend Nate lead me to this song last night. Even from the first moments I could tell it was going to effect me greatly.
The song begins with a boy who is so very much in love with a girl. He loves her so greatly that he starts to search all over for her. He wants to marry this angel in his mind. Slowly the boy comes to a sad epiphany when he receives a climactic letter.

"I'm not coming back, (forgive me)

I've done something so terrible

I'm terrified to speak, (I'm not calling, I'm not calling)

But you'd expect that from me

I'm mixed up, I'll be blunt;

Now the rain is just (you're driving me crazy, I'm)

Washing you out of my hair and out of my mind

Keeping an eye on the world,

So many thousands of feet off the ground

I'm over you now I'm at home in the clouds

Towering over your head"

This is what makes the song so poetic. It is a letter of goodbye to a boy she loved so greatly she couldn’t bear to live without him. So she decided she couldn’t live at all. She is his literal angel now.

I just wanted to ponder the whole idea of Remember Sunday. My heart is slightly broken by this song. It makes me cry for the idea of loving so much that you can’t live without them. I am in no way suicidal; I promise. However I thought about what Remember Sunday means to me. I want to remember my Sundays when I look back at my life and who was important to me. I want to love Jordan as much as this couple loved each other. I also want him to understand the idea of undying love and romanticism.

Like the boy in the song I have also came to a revelation. I understood that I am in love with a boy who is scared to love me back with the same intense feeling. I am ok with that finally though because I think I understand that these things take time. I want to look forward to the moments we have and never take them for granted. I want to remember loving him whether or not he loved me as much back. I am not scared to be too in love anymore. I don’t think there could be such a thing now. He will fall for me when he feels ready. I need to be patient, however I want him to know (if he is reading this), that I will always be there to catch him. That I would rather die than see him in pain. I hope one day he can feel the same way. That I won’t pressure him anymore about what I feel he is supposed to feel. True love isn’t faked or forced. It is something that happens naturally and I need to remember that. I should listen to some less depressing music now. Hopefully I will write soon later.