Nothing For Granted?

I was just thinking a few weeks ago as I spent time eating ice cream with someone so very close to me. Just by watching Beck videos on YouTube I had a ton of fun. I began realize how much I love moments like those and how many of these moments in my life seem to tick by. People always say to drink in these moments, the ones that take your breath away. I fear that I’m losing many of those moments, that they are being wasted. This past three day I was given a whole weekend of those moments. On Sunday again I was given a glimpse at a future and was lost. I don’t want to see my moments fly away and not get anything out of them. I don’t want to stop learning and living. “Whatever You’re Doing” by Sanctus Real is on right now and it just seems to capture this writing mood perfectly. I realize that I am scared. Scared to grow up too fast, scared to not get where I’m going, and scared to be a nobody. Maybe I am having a Holden Caulfield moment now, it don’t think it matters. I want to have security; I want to be closer to god. Maybe it is this whole college thing, where you feel far away from god. It is as if no matter how much you try to hold onto him the concept and the faith you want seems to slip away from you. I know that one day I won’t feel that way. It is raining, I’m hungry and I need to sleep. I want to watch American Idol and not to worry about things anymore today. Good Bye Blogger Buddies.